Have things been going well? Or have you been falling deeper and deeper into this pit of nothingness.
I had a really nice and motivating talk with a very close friend of mine. Apparently, I realized, I've been neglecting myself. For the happiness of those close to me, I've abandoned myself unconsciously.
Being so cheerful in front of everybody...
yet so cold and dark when I'm all alone..
Why do I tend to be so dark and pessimistic when the night falls?
Is it a desperate call for attention? Was it the past?
Was it that I'm tired of hidden and avoiding?
I've told myself, I grew up from all the scars and pain, but, have I still not let go off thee?
What do I really want to achieve in life? To be accepted? To be loved? To be surrounded by wealth and friends? To be extremely appealing to people? To be an icon?
Why do I still have this deep darkness inside of me? Have I not guided myself from darkness and into thy light?
Why... oh why..?
