It's goodbye...

In a blink of an eye, it's already been 2 years as a Senior in school. SPM is ending in 3 days, well at least for me. And it'll be goodbye to all my friends that's leaving.

Kai Lun, Hans ,Jordan, Sheldon, Bernice, Gary, Jia Yi, Khi Ching, Mui Tzan, Young Kee, Shawn, Kah Heng, Mandy, Michelle, Chia Eng,Robin, Heng Jian.. etc.. there's just too much..

It's kinda sad really, 2 years is not long at all, I didn't even get to know all of them, there's lovely Hans; smart and playful Jordan; Sheldon, also smart, and kinda cute? The cute dynamic duo, Shawn and Young Kee; rich ass and smart ass Gary; The genius trio, Mui Tzan, Jia Yi, Khi Ching; the queen of brains and speeches, Kah Heng; the puny but still having a big heart Bernice; BIG and LOUD Kai Lun; the noisy duet Michelle and Mandy; Miss treasurer of the year Chia Eng, cutie Robin; CEO of Yap enterprise Heng Jian...

Haha, not a very good description I guess, some don't even have a good impression on me, I think o_O

And today, it was like, the last day of tuition in Jonathan's. Look at how time flies. It's already been two years. He gave us a lot of helping hands in our school work, he's heavenly! He gives the lectures and I'll miss them someday. He could be annoying, yet entertaining at the same time, and please lah, give him a break, he's really helpful. I apologize for anything bad I've done to him =(

Next year will be a quiet year, ignoring the fact that Phui, Simon and I will be the main megaphones in class, but yea, it's going to be very extremely different.

Mock trial will be so different without the gang, Jordan, Sheldon, Kai Lun and Shawn..

Class will be much more cooler with the empty spaces at the back of the class....

Sports day will be not be so fun since I can't goof off with others....

I'll miss the good old days, when I posed and Michelle will go 'YUCK!'

I'll miss the good old days, when the Jordan starts to make fun of people...

I'll miss the good old days, when Sheldon looks totally blur in class...

I'll miss the good old days, when Young Kee and Shawn are being harrassed for being TOO cute...

I'll miss the good old days, when we played madly with everyone in class...

I'll miss the good old days, when we had nothing to do and chatted the whole day in class...

I'll miss the good old days, when I argue gaily with Michelle about her being older than me for almost a year...

I'll miss the good old days in tuition, when Jonathan goes all pissed and starting lecturing us...

I'll miss the good old days, when I start to get annoyed by others in class but forget about it in a flash...

I'll miss the good old days, when slowly, I see everybody around grow up..

I'll miss the good old days, when we celebrate birthdays together...

I'll miss the days when Kai Lun and the others in class screw Kah Poh to shut his mouth up..

I'll miss the camwhoring time with Hans...

I'll miss the special moments with everyone in class...

I'll miss the days when Kai Lun starts to invade our privacy... hmm wait, not that much xD

and etc...
There's no point crying over spilt milk, but there's a point crying, when there's no chance for us to see each others anymore.

Here, I wish you all, happy always and be successful in the things that you want to be and cherish the moments....

It sucks to be me

I really love this song from Avenue Q, funny yet meaningful.

It Sucks to Be Me.

Chances

Chances, what are they? Sometimes they come knocking at your door, sometimes it's at the grasp of your hand, yet, sadly, sometimes it waves goodbye to you on the railroad of life.

I missed a lot of chances in life, and sure, I will regret, and stomp myself, blaming myself, why letting it go, why making the wrong decisions in life, making your own life worse, miserable, sucky, screwable... Okay that word was kinda made up... but what the heck...

I want to apologize, for the things that I've done that dissatisfies you. I wanna say I'm sorry if I ever hurt anyone's feeling. I wanna say sorry to those out there that I showed disrespectfulness (another made up word) to anyone. I apologize if I pissed anyone of you off before. Please forgive me. I don't feel like I ever have the chance to say this anymore, so many of you are leaving, now is SPM too. I just wish there's a way for me to turn back time and undo the mistakes I've done...

I'm sorry, and also, I'm kinda grateful that everything turned out this way. So, in addition, thank you.

SPM

What do you know, it's SPM break time, BM was dandy, Sejarah was suprisingly okay o_o, english was swell, math was unpredictably hard =( .... Now we're left with, Add Maths, Moral, Chemistry, Biology, Physics, Chinese, EST and ART... oh my goodness... )=

I get somehow stressed from all these, Mr Ng was right, we should never study last minute, it's bad, now I see. i told myself to study right? Why couldn't I listen to myself? Instead I was 'relaxing' myself, DAMN ME!

So many things happening, not too mention I miss some of them, hmm, it's like YOU WIN SOME YOU LOSE SOME. I finally get that....

I was chosen as English mc for the graduation ceremony for this years Senior 3, and heck because of this, I missed a few precious moments in my life. During the last day of school, which is also my last rehearsal, I missed my chance to give a farewell for my classmates who's leaving this year, people cried while singing songs in class, while my friend and I are stuck in the hall.

And then comes the graduation ceremony, which means a lot to me, because this year's Senior 3 is dearest to me, yet I'm stuck on stage, not being able to take a last look at them properly from the front when they're singing, this sucks! =(

I got forgetful too....Was it because of the stress? I don't know, sometime I don't even know whether this is called stress. The day before SPM my mind was blank and all I kept doing was worrying that I won't do well for my SPM... Which is in consequence, wasting more of my time....

I hate me.