Frustration

Frustrations come and go. Patience might be limited depending on different individual. Emotions are not a thing to be messed around with. Trust and faith are just the few fragile ornaments in life.

When you're in a state of being total self conceit, you'll think that everything you decide is right, you won't really think deeply of the consequences it brings, don't you? Well here's what I want to say to you, please snap out of it and look at the big picture.

ps: The 'you' is for everybody who's like that. Not a particular target. =)

Phew! What an emotional and tiring day! I have to force myself to be fierce today, and for the rest of the year, I think I have to show some 'face', the ugly one. The orchestra needs discipline, and someone have to be the meanie, no more Mr-nice-Anson. If I can't teach them the nice and meek way, then I'm sorry I just have to do it the hard and tough way.

Walking below the hot sun, I thought to myself, life is always full of decisions, which then unlocks the door of mysteries. It's always painstaking when you have to make some decisions that will alter the fate of either myself, somebody else or even the fate of the orchestra, for example.

Being leader ain't easy, being the head isn't fun. And I'm all so prepared to be nagged, chided, scolded, because I know, that's my duty, to serve the orchestra. I know, I may not be the best president the orchestra had, but I am keen on learning how to be one, I am patient, despite the silly and happy-go-lucky face of mine.

My attitude, my thinking, my gesture might differ from other previous presidents. But hear this, I won't let my private life interfere with the orchestra. What if everyone around me is telling me to not be so serious on the orchestra and concentrate on my studies instead? I will still work dutifully for my people, I will try my best to work as diligent as I could and buck up in my studies, I will build a barrier to ward away unwanted distraction and petty prejudices.

Being the leader sometimes sucks, not only you can't take part in every fun activity happening, it's quite taboo to ever show a tired face or even a tiny speck of weakness. Well, at least for me, I won't ever show how tired I am to the members of the orchestra, only the close ones will understand me.

But one thing that I haven't let go... Is the one thing that I've been missing for the past whole month.. It's unorthodox, it's some how creepy, but I've lived through it for quite awhile, and slowly, adapting myself to the status quo.

I apologize deeply to my friends around me for letting this great emotional flush of mine affect the way I treat you guys. It's a really vulnerable state which I am easily hurt, not to mention easily getting mood swings, it's a really unstable stage.

Bottom line, I really hope people nowadays will act rationally and not being so selfish, not to mention childish. And, I want everyone to know, that I will do anything I can in my power, to make my life a better place to live.

Salutations.

School reopens!

L.O.L much!

Almost every student that joined the leadership camp was seen lying on they're own seat in class.

Simon didn't even attend school!!! xD

Even though, the camp is over, but there's a mark that's left within everybody's heart. We became more playful than ever!

Eck~ just trying to keep this blog updated for Pete's sake!

Uh.. who's Pete? o.O

13th Yu Yuan Secondary School Leadership Camp

Another well spent mid term break for year 2009. Well, the first mid term break that is :p

But, before I continue, I will like to send my total remorse over the tragic happenings, I, along with the rest of the committee board, are very sorry over the great lost.

There's a lot of words to describe this year's leadership camp, but I have to emphasize on a few, and one of the has got to be, nonetheless - Tiring.

Raise your hands for those who never felt tired throughout the whole process. Right from day 1 of preparation to the moment of the closing ceremony. Everything we've done, just to make sure the camp will go as smoothly as we could maintain it.

Day 1

Logo for the leadership camp

It was such a delight watching the campers walk into school, as they place they're luggage onto the table for us to inspect, confiscating their mobile phones (if any), snacks and etc. At the sound of the camp leader in command, everyone was in a pin-drop-silence environment, with no one making a peep of noise.

Then it was the opening ceremony, and I was the last minute MC replacements, and my partner was Mr Yap! (lol) He reminded me of the first time I was MC in a big school event - Graduation Ceremony. Everything has to be perfect, just like for him and the rest, everything must be perfect during the opening ceremony. But alas, things went through considerably smooth.

Afternoon... GAME TIME! I was in charge of a game station, so basically I was forced to stay in the school canteen waiting for each team members to finish my level. I didn't have my phone with me, no pics dudes... Sorry. Overall, the game was ok. Something went wrong during the game playing but was solved after a short meeting between the committees.

Luckily, we weren't chided at night during meeting by our teacher in charge. Phew!

Day 2


The male committee woke up late, curse it! We were punished to run around the school ground, talk about exhaustion! But we deserve, oh well... =(

What's so special about the 2nd day? Obstacle Course! =D

And again I was in charge of one of the stations... Boo... D=

The station that I was in charge of was rope climbing, and trust me, this is like one of the emotional stage I've seen so far, everyone overcoming they're fear towards climbing up; each overcoming an obstacle greater than the rope itself - themselves.

Climb Yi Xing Climb!

You had succeeded =)

After a long run outside school, it's time to just return to school, work more, listen to talks.. and then... collapse!

Day 3

Gosh! Everybody almost woke up late! LOL! The morning exercise was very refreshing indeed. I was half asleep before the morning exercise. Enjoy every bit of it! The dance move, the music. Thanks for the lovely exercise. Same old same old, more talks and such, but I was forced to miss them, cause I have to help out in cleaning the tents and such... aww D=

Then at night was the campfire.. I cried... eventually... because it was sharing time *damn I hate it when I cry during sharing time*

Day 4

Managed to make a few new friends, all from the campers, whose name I don't know how to type in english xD

Goooooooooodbye everybody! Hope you enjoyed the camp. And as for the committe, we still have lots of work to do!!!! bahhaaha~

Exhausted male committees... xD

Anyway... *if you noticed I changed the text colour* overall of this camp, it's not only tiring, but showed me just how important team work is, and not to mention social status. Don't ask me why but I seen it all.

Also, to conclude, I was reminded just how realistic human beings really are...

Later!

ps: Lo Mei Tze rocked the camp! Well, part of the camp xD You go girl!

Sorry Life.

I'm sorry life. I deeply apologize for the mistake I've done. I am not going to regret, let it be a lesson to myself.

It's a long road ahead.. I've I'm collapsing half way through, how will I be living life fully and enjoy what's ahead of me?

Christina Aguilera once sung "Good things come for boys who wait! "

Sure, I will wait, just like the hunter waiting for the rabbit. Right now, I just have to keep moving on, making and building a better pavement for my life long journey to the end.

I thank you all for providing me this lovely environment to grow, peaceful, not so busy, and not so polluted until recent years. I thank YOU (and I hope you know I'm talking about YOU if you're reading) for shaping the man I am today.

But still, I am sorry for what I've done to myself, I won't blame YOU, but myself for letting his happen.

Good riddance miserable me, a brighter tomorrow awaits. Don't forget, you still love someone.

Back to Basics

OMG! After the few days of waiting, it's finally here!


Check it out! Christina Aguilera's-Back to Basics music sheets in one book! Piano, vocal, guitar! Mauhahahah!!! OMG!!!

The Lonely Nights...

Hah.. the sad, lonely nights.. Why not take a stroll outside? It should let my mind wander a little...

The cool night breeze, the pale orange sky, the melancholic cries of the crows returning to their nests after a hard day, the lonely star shinning dimly at the skies above, reflecting, just how much company he needed, twinkling each drop of tear, evaporated before they reach the face of the Earth. I understand how you feel little star, I do..

The sky turned into a deep, monotonous colour of Prussian blue, the lonely star finally had a companion next to him, but I know, they are distant apart. The dim star remained dimly, while his companion, from distance away, who was trying to reach out for him, too resonated with him.

The familiar lamp post, stood lonely on the street outside magnificent standing bungalows. With it's feet surrounded with weeds and wittering flowers. They were the only closest being accompanying the lonely standing lamp post, under the scorching, merciless sun; beaten by corroding wind and rain; beneath the canopy of stars with the magnificent view of the Pearl Moon.

It casts shadows. Mine too, was like my only companion, accompanying me at that time. I too, felt the loneliness surrounding me. Slowly, my instant companion faded away, and I stood in front of the stainless steel gate. Ignoring the fact that the remote control is just in my left pocket.

After sighing a few times, I just, dragged my under appreciated soul into the place I seek shelter. The warm aroma of burning joss sticks calm my senses. Serenity at last.

But in all those calming serenity and quietness, loneliness still crept in, mocking at it's victim, tormenting the already battered out soul. Let it to rest, please, he needs company, just like the dim star longing to reunite with that far away star that he calls companion.