250th Entry

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Saving this post for a special someone, a very close friend of mine.

*drum rolls*

Kenny Chang!

It's your birthday Kenny! Best of all, it's you're 16th birthday!

I still remember the first time I meet you, you were just, well, quite a little kid, a shy one in fact. All you do is wrap your head in your arms and sleep. But still, you would greet with a smile on your face, most of the time :D

You looked kinda distorted... Sry for the bad quality of my phone back then xP

And guess what? The moment Avelin and I see you, we both keep saying you're the cutest thing ever xD

Soon, you grew up, and I watched you grew up. Our friendship grew with it as well.


After all the crazy months, it's finally the time for you to shed your 15 year old skin and grow into a 16 year old.

That's.... so... touching... T_T (lol)

But no matter how old you looked, you'll still be everyone's cute little Kenny, right Avelin? :D

"oops? Really? Thanks :D"

Happy Birthday Dude! Smile always :)

Total knock out!

You're a total knock out!!

I giggle everytime I think of you, gosh, I feel so hot and sweaty everytime I think about you in bed... hehe...

Whenever I'm emo... and noone there's to cheer me up, just thinking of you, makes my heart bloom into brightness...

Whenever I'm lonely, I'll picture you by my side... hehe..

When I feel left out and being ignored , the thought of you reaching for me makes me feel confident and comfortable, even, if you sometime ignore me too..

I enjoy sitting in the corner looking at you, you may not notice, which is good... too...

It's fun watching you, nasty thoughts start appearing in my head.. keke..

I want.. a taste of you... But it's like trying to go to Moon and breathe their without any oxygen tank... if you didn't get that, it means, it's I-M-P-O-S-S-I-B-L-E.

But it's still the greatest being able to see you by my side, being able to hear your voice, being able to think about you, it's more than enough.

I won't get to hold you. I won't even give myself a chance to hold you, it's my last few months to be around you, but I know, it's impossible. But I'm still smiling at every moment being with you.

And here, I recite what I feel right now..

I am willing to the dishes every night
Just to look up into the night skies,
and look at the moon.

The shape of the moon,
shapes like your smile.
Whether it's cresent or half moon.
But I won't let you know,
what the full moon makes me think of,

YOU

But it rained these few nights..
I was just able to take a glimpse of you.
It's like the skies above know what's right..
Because I'm just alowed to take a peek of you.

No matter, I think that's more than enough.

Now... let's CAN CAN!!! :D

caution: Overly obsessed to the song 'Infernal Gallop', which happens to be the song where the women dance can can to. Don't know what's can can? Youtube it! xD

Over and out.

Muscial Montage!

Oh no, oh no! I feel like a musical montage coming! :O

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyeeeeeeeeea!!!

(Do your thing honey!)

I could feel it from the start!
Couldn't stand to be apart!
Something bout you caught my eye!
Something moved me deep insideee~

Oh!

You got what I want **** and I want it! :D
And I've been hooked ever since!!

Told mother, my brother my sister and my friend!
Told the others, my lovers, both past and present tense,
That everytime I see you, everything that's making seennseeee!!!!

Lol that was bunch of fun! :D

HOLD ON!

It's tomorrow, it's tomorrow! Finally it's coming! The magnificent, mysterious, well-feared

*drum rolls*

UEC!

*Applause and gasp*

All those preparations, all those hard work, all those tear jerking moments, all those time gone by! This is it, the D-day, the moment of truth, the 8 days of grueling judgement!

But after that.

FREEDOM

from the secondary school life!!!

I'll leave all the happiness and screams after my UEC is done, and when graduation comes.. it'll be the most... :P

ps: YOU SUCK!! :D

I love YOU! :D

Sorry, I sweared.

It may be the most uncool thing, ever. And I know Jordan don't swear anymore, but hey, what's the harm in swearing those stress out? I'm very sure people is going to tell me that there's far better ways to release stress, hmmm, I know but hey..

FUCK YOU! :D

Lol, I just lol-ed in real life typing that. See, it's fun. Don't think I'm mentally disordered. I think I'm perfectly fine.

Now...

FUCK YOU! Seriously, I hate you! :D All you do is criticize others, but don't you know you are the most annoying person I meet so far, and I was SO dumb believing in you! You suck~ You really really really really suck! :D You douchebag!

Hmmm... I don't know what else to swear, besides, it's an imaginative individual.. Although, there are somethings that I really mean it :P

That felt great, back to studies~

....

It's coming alright, UEC that's it, I think I'll go brief and simple in this post, everything I typed seemed so... so.. Emo and Deep, and now, in this period, I think, even the simpliest word would make me sound like an emo-Fuck..

I wanna get away from this mess.. Ugh, I desire... to be let go... Wanna try something new, wanna get serious and get matters straighten up.. But it's definitely, not now... not now...

6 days to go man, gotta be patient...

Damn, what am I saying, that felt, random, unorganized and just, plain rubbish. Or is it?

I've gain weight... please oh please don't say anything about it, I know what I should do, so please? Lay down on the criticism okay? I don't want to hear another word about it..

Sigh... I feel so... not 'me' these few months... I know, I should be studying instead of blogging here; I know I should be plunging myself into the sea of chemical equations, biological terms, physics formula and mathematical problems, oh don't forget english grammars, chinese literature and malay idioms, I just, want to take a break for awhile..

I know I shouldn't feel like this, my heart... is pounding so quickly again when I thought of you.. I haven't got this feeling for months.. and, with D-day approaching, I must.... resist it.

Everytime you don't reply my messages, it feels like it's the end of the world... Everytime I think about you, it felt like life just got perfect in any way.. I love you, so much.

Gah, still felt like I've been speaking rubbish throughout this post.. I'm sorry :(

p/s: I'm in love~ :D and UEC is coming in 6 days D:

Cravings for being appreciated

What do I crave for the most, the moment I took on learning yang qin, is appreciation, and also, acceptance..

Because.. So far.. All I get, especially at home, is

"So noisy"

Gee, I wonder how much that hurt me, but still, I swallowed it whole, and have been doing it for almost 3 years now...

Suddenly, it all burst, and, I broke a string during my rampage...

It's like, the only place where I could feel the love is when I play it all alone at home, all alone in school, and with my yang qin friends.. It's just, so hard to find people to appreciate the things I do, all I could say is...

Under appreciated

This post, may sound selfish and self-centered, it's like, I'm not standing in the angle of others and think. I do, and I did. It's just, I've been such a nice person for so long, and I just couldn't take it anymore.

And this goes out to everyone who feels the same as I am, no matter what field we are in, I feel you.