28th of Sept, 2010.
"Soon, I'll be forgotten, thanks for being such nice friends to me. Alas, the emoness took over me, and I am being engulfed in darkness. There shall I be forgotten, may it be so."
"We all laughed together, seen each other cry, had fun together, and went through crazy times together, alas, I feel that it can't be avoided, the tendency of being left behind, for I am not worthy of being anybody's friend. Here, I give everyone my salutations, I lost in life."
"It seems that everyone is going through some up and downs of their own. Some lost their relatives, some had relatives hospitalized, some had arguments with friends, some had arguments with family. Some had heart breaks, some had heart aches. Some are having difficulties in a relationship, some are just going crazy every night thinking what a failure they are themselves. I, am a few of them. I shall never be accepted."
"the worse thing is, i've gone through it a lot, and still, i have never had a brighter day... even if i had a wonderful day, with lots of laughter and sharing with friends, but deep down, when night comes, i can't stop struggling with my inner sadness."
"i have to wait.. and do nothing but wait.. i tried my best to make things better for me, but alas, all ends in vain. I still prioritize others benefit even more."
I am still, in search of my inner peace. I used to have it, when I had my heart fall for someone. But yet, I never had a brighter day till now, I never had inner peace. My heart, starts to wilt. I feel, so discouraged in life.
What's gonna be next?
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