Him...

There are so many things that I want to tell him. Things that I've been holding back since the first day he starts avoiding me. Call me dumb, but for so long I've never had the guts to talk to him ever again. Avoiding me has been a sight that I've been seeing for the past two years.

I remembered once that i sat on his chair, he seemed quite disturbed, when I left, he took a cleaning agent and wiped his chair clean. That I really wished I've never seen. And another time, when it was English lesson and we got arranged in the same group along with four other persons. That was the time we finally said somethings, though i felt unpleasant, cause, when I found out we're in the same group, I'm afraid I'm afraid that I'm gonna be avoided/ignored. Even now inc lass, there's no way he'll talk to someone who he has been avoiding for sometimes. Yes, we do talk sometimes, but only short sentences...

Since the day he started avoiding me, I've never seen him in my MSN contacts again. At first I thought he just offline, but something tells me that he deleted me in his contact. last year i added him back cause we have to discuss about the project.

HE REALLY IS AN AMAZING PERSON. He's good in speaking, he's good in writing, he's good studying, he's good in sports, he's good in being a friend. Everyone just loves him, everyone wants to be his friend, everyone wants to know him! xD

Sometimes, I wished that i wasn't in places where he is. I', afraid that my presence will spoil his fun. But, am I thinking too much? What if he doesn't hate me anymore? What if, instead I'm the one avoiding him? What if he's cleaning his chair cause it's dirty?

I treasure him as a friend, and feel hurt for losing him as a friend. I really hoped that, we will be like old times, where we had our laughs together, played together, and had fun together, as friends. But will it happen again?