Balance

I've always been the person that puts others before me. I'm also the type of person that always sticks to that few close friends because I feel comfortable with them and there's no need to bare my all to others if I don't see ourselves spending life together in the long run. And that's the bad thing.

Recently, I've been thinking, and also looking back at my few years here in Singapore. I realise, when I have a crush on someone, I immediately raise the person's status. Everything I do or think I'll consider putting the crush first. I'll think of many ways in order to spend more time, find excuses to talk to that person more without being annoying. At the same time, I tend to neglect other things, like my other friends who's not part of the circle that my crush and I share, for example.

And that's when it hits me. There's gotta be balance. No shit, that's how life should be. Easier said than done, though. Especially when I'm really into someone. There really must be balance, I shouldn't constantly bug the crush, give them personal space, give them the freedom to hang out with whoever they want, and also to live my own life too, and hang out with my friends that I mustn't neglect. But that's the past anyway.

Oh well, it's just a thought that's been running through my mind recently. I know what are my weaknesses, and I know that I can be annoying and suffocating, and I'm really doing my best to change these bad habits, so yea.