Thank You Jordan

Thank you Jordan, for the kind words. It was cheering me up, it was motivating me, I was making me snap out of the dazed condition I was in, it was... The thing that I really needed most.

I just never thought, that there'll be someone who would say such things for me, the things of what I really wanted to hear most. To know that I'm not alone, to know that there's still people who really understands how I felt deep down inside.

I was at the verge of breaking down recently. At school, people may see me as a funny, happy-go-lucky, cheerful guy, but at home, not even my mother had seen such sorrows portrayed on her son's delicate face. The frown on his face, tells a story that could be written into a book. The minutes he spent waiting... and waiting... and waiting...

He does tries his best to control that down sliding emotion of his, and he did managed to control his anger too. He just had to, sometimes, show his rage in front of disrespectful and disobeying people just to show them who's boss.

He let his grades slip because of this unorthodox waiting and staying in the past. He was given a lecture from not only his parents, but also his form teacher and school teachers.

Jordan, I thank you personally, in front of all my readers, for telling me to not cry over spilt milk and look for a better future, it's a long road ahead, I shouldn't be giving up on life, at least, not now.

I shall, leave a part of me right here, to remember the things people had done for me, good or bad, joy or sorrow. And the other half, walking into the unknown, mysterious future.

The past is the past, I just didn't imagine keeping myself waiting for so long and neglecting other things in life. But hear this, I never find it time wasting and regretting.

As for the future? I shall, treat it cautiously, and spend it with the one creation that I could seek support, care and mutual understanding - friends.

ps: I miss you guys. Jordan, Aveline, Kai, Phui and so much more... One day I'll join you guys!

So have I cheered up? Time will tell... somehow...