I know...

I know, from the instant you started neglecting me, the magic is already drowning. I know, from the moment we stopped webcamming, you were tired of me. I know, from the time you started treated me this way, you had your heart looking at someone else.

I see it all, I know it all, that's a really sad thing. For now, I felt like I was used for amusement. I won't blame you for that. I will never blame you for that. I'll just carry this burdened self away from your life. But how I'd wish you tell me that, and not leave me waiting for weeks, for months. The day and nights wanting for you to online, waiting for you to reply. The time I spent trying to figure out what's in your mind.

All those time, how I'd wish you just tell me. So I won't be a fool of myself. I gave you my all, and I was treated unkindly.

What is more to do for me? There's no point going forward, I have lost the fight. I'll just pack my bags and leave. I am letting go again. Those past months, with only you in my head. Now, I'll have to occupy that hole in my heart with other things.

The first step of letting go, was to remove you from my 'favourite' list in my MSN, then removed you from my featured friend's list. There is more to be done, but at least, remove the things were I can actually see your name.

I am so afraid of seeing your name. The sight of people mention your name trembles me.

It's official, I am going to let go. Maybe, until the distant future, I shall return. For now, are we still friends?