It's time for a change

It took me days to realize I was falling for you, and it took me months to let the feel deepens.

It took me weeks to let me realize that you weren't falling for me, and it took me seconds to totally let go with tears shed.

Yes, I lost the fight, and I'm finally talking about it. Just as I thought there was magic between us, you chose lust when you deceived me, and it truly is a tragic. We both lost it all, the love has gone.

I felt our world had been infected, the moment you treated me differently, you started neglecting me. We found our lives been changed, you lost me.
Letting you go, was easier than I thought it would be. Maybe it's because, I have good companions like Jade, Jamie Gan, Aaron Song. Crazy people to play with like Ryan Nathan Lee and Jin Yu. I channelled all my anger, all my sorrow into spending time with people that I have right now, in Singapore.

There's nothing I can do to prevent this from happening so soon, I had tried my best, but still you avoided me from letting me enter your world. I don't blame you for that.
Here, I wish you joy and happiness, with the person you chose to be with. I'll be fine here, because I learnt how to be stronger than ever.

Sure, there were times when I still shed tears looking at the pictures we took together, all the SMSes we sent, or even recalling the crazy moments we had together. But not anymore, I may still be fighting to forget, but still, thank you for the good memories.
From day 1, when I found out I had fallen for you, I knew it was a gamble, and I was willing to be a risk taker, the pretender. And, from day 1, I realize that things weren't working out as I thought it would be, I already started letting go, that's why, I wasn't as hurt as before.

The previous falls that I had, thought me to be stronger, to be better, to be wiser, and I managed to pull through this time. Typing this post, means that I am ready to carry on.

But still, ready doesn't mean willing is it?

I do believe, we are still friends? Or you chose to shun me from your world ever again. What ever the outcome maybe, I'm sure, that time will slowly sort things out between us.

For now, it's time for a change.

Dyeing my hair, signifies the will to let go of the dark past I been in. I hope there will be more change to come, as I slowly stand up from the pain I still suffered from.

Thank you my friends, for always being there for me. It truly is appreciated.
In the end, when I read this post from the top, tears came rolling down again. Was it tears of happiness, that I finally have the courage to face it? ; Or was is tears of sadness, over the lost that I had?
Whatever the reasons may be, life still moves on. May a brighter tomorrow awaits us all.