Depressed.

I feel... a little depressed.

Yes, it's just me. I don't know.. Things hasn't been smooth lately.. Sure I hanged out and meet up with old friends, like going for dinner in Sheldon's place and going out with Tricia who came back from Australia, they were good times, but once I get home, I can't help having the feeling of being left out... Being isolated..

Like I said, it's just me. I have people nudging me in hotmail, people sms-ing me now and then, I know you are doing all these for my own good, I know I have to be considerate myself, so what am I being depressed for?!

WHY!? WHY?! WHY?!

It's just me, it's just me... It's just me... Noone was to blame... What I crave for.. has to wait.. For it's still.. in the process.. of growing.. I have to.. I have to... Give time.. that's it.. time... let's not say anything more... that's right... nothing more... before... before.. I ruin everything.. that I love most... with a... heavy heart... I shall... stop... I'm sorry..

It's just me... having a headache.. and thinking too many... irrelevant thoughts... why me.. why me...

I just... need... you... by... my..side....But... A.. promise...is a promise...

I suck.. in controlling my desires.... And I should.. focus on what.. you desire...

Oh hush up Anson! Nothing is gonna change if you just talk about how you feel! Stand up! Face the music! Take action! You can do it!

Right... I have to get over this on my own...

But saying all this... Doesn't mean I hate you... It means I care.

Welcome.. to the emo side of me.

Good night....