It was a beautiful month of June. Everything was sweet. It spiced up my life. It was the few weeks of happiness. Everything I see is beautiful, everything I touch turns to gold. I was getting fatter from the sugary sweetness. Every minute every second it'll be in my mind, the love I was in. Every step I take flower would grow, every breathe I take rejuvenates the people around me. I had that aura around me that revives dead soul.
Then came the period where time took control of life. Time restricted from me from meeting up with my purpose of living. My sentimentalism took over too. The bright yellow aura died down. Grief engulfed my morning skies. And rain would beat on my window at night. Things went on like that. Bad things would fade through my thoughts, which I will dismiss.
It became impossible for me to love. And that day, that faithful day, when I listened to Christina Aguilera's Impossible. It happened.
The break up, was one of the thing that hurts most that moment. I was impressed though, that I was able to keep a straight face for a few hours before breaking down when there's nobody at home. The gloomy sky outside turned into thunder storms. The grief I had, turned into frustration. I was furious. Frustrated that I was left like that. For not even giving me a chance to speak up. For not even giving me a chance to let me tell you, how much I've been suffering before you even break up with me.
But yet, I just felt like it's the end of the world for ONE mere hour.
This relationship we shared. Was sweet, bumpy and short.
I deleted your every message, and that's when it starts to hurt. But.. I have move on.
I know, that you won't be visiting this blog anymore. Just like what you did, deleting me from you contact list in Hotmail and Facebook.
You say it'll be pointless to say that you'll be here with me always? I want you to know, why you shouldn't you use the term FOREVER! You have to take responsibility.
Mr Hong was right, when you really love someone, and when we break up, more likely getting dumped, we'll blame it all at the partner. For being so selfish, so cruel, so cold, so heartless.
I was starting to recover from my previous bruises from getting together with you, now you doubled the pain. I hope you are happy.
Oh wait! You do!
What is it more to say? It's over. And I'm glad I have friends like Simon, Stella, Tzy Tyng, Su Tien, Bernice, Robert, Wei Wei and Jie How, Phui with me.
I'm single again ladies and gentlemen!
It's impossible to love you
If you don't let me know what you're feeling
It's impossible for me to give you what you need
If you're always hidin' from me I don't know what hurt you
I just, I wanna make it right
Cos boy I'm sick and tired of trying to read your mind
It's impossible (impossible)
Oh baby it's impossible for me to love you
It's the way it is
It's impossible (impossible)
Oh baby it's impossible
If you makin' it this way
Impossible to make it easy
If you always tryin' to make it so damn hard
How can I, how can I give you all my love, baby
If you're always, always puttin' up your guard
This is not a circus
Don't you play me for a clown
How long can emotions keep on goin' up and down
It's impossible (impossible)
Oh baby it's impossible for me to love you
It's the way it is
It's impossible (impossible)
Oh baby it's impossible
If you keep treating me this way
Over, over (over and over)
Impossible baby (impossible, impossible)
If you makin' it this way, this way
Oh baby, it's impossible
If you makin' it this way
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